The beginning

Lillian was born on April 14th at 7:47pm. She was born via c-section due to having a high heart rate and being posterior. After 8 hours of medication free labor I opted for something to take the edge off. While I am not proud to admit it, I hadn't been that high since college! About 2 hours of that stuff it wore off and just wasnt doing the job any more, I felt AWFUL and the contractions were killing me. I chose to have an epidural. After 3 hours later I tried to push and it just was not happening. She was staying in and her heart rate had shot into the 230's. My midwife also told me I would be pushing for a while since she was face down. We went in for Cesarean. By this time I was strung out and since I tried not to hit the boost button during labor, I felt a good bit of everything. I vaguely remember them showing her to me before she and Tony went to the nursery. I passed out while the doctors were stiching me up and woke up in so much pain when moved from the OR table back to my bed, if I could have hit a button to die at that moment, I probably wold have. I dont remember much of that night except thinking I want McDonalds chicken nuggets, a diet coke and where is the Mac-Truck that ran me over? Thankfully a wonderful friend was there to take pictures :) The next morning was much better. I realized that no, it wasnt a dream, I am really holding a perfect beautiful tiny girl! :) We spent the day visiting w/friends and family. I was amazed at how much I could love someone so quickly ( I am still amazed how every day I love her 10 times more then the day before) That night after everyone had gone, the nurse came in and said they needed to take her to redo her hearing test. I thought, thats weird but OK. When she came back she told us Lilli had "refereed" which is the polite way of saying she failed. She informed us that was totally normal w/c-section babies because they arent "squeezed out" like vaginally delivered babies are. She said at our lactation visit the following week they will redo it and she will more then likely pass. We didnt really think much more about it. The next afternoon we headed home to begin our lives as a family of 3.