I cried a little bit tonight

Today we celebrated Tony's grandmother's 80th birthday. She is a wonderful woman and she and Lillian have a very special relationship! :) If you arent very familiar with my in-laws, the sing, all the time, they love to sing and sound VERY good doing it :) Of course since it was granny's birthday party they took the time to sing some of her favorite hymns. They sounded beautiful. I realized sitting in the back of the room that the family up front had caught Lilli's attention. I decided to move her closer to the sound (which is what our therapists enocourage) When we got up to the front of the room, the family was in full swing singing sweet music to bless our wonderful Lord. Lilli was amazed. She was shaking! I think she was a little scared because she had never really been that close to them singing that loudly before, plus Aunt Joy rocking it out on the piano added to the decebels in the room. Although shaking and unsure of what was going on, she loved it and laughed at the same time. I cant explain the feeling that came over me. Part joy, honestly a tiny bit of sadness, not for little Lilli but for the other children. They are all such WONDERFUL children. I could not ask for a better family! Chidlren really are a blessing and it is obvious our entire family thinks so. I love them all. But while the family was singing the other kids were running around playing tag, which is expected given that most of them are boys. But I was just so shocked that they didnt really stop to listen to the joyful noise being sung. They are so used to it and honestly 4 months ago, while I enjoyed listening to our family chior I feel like I took advantage of it. Tonight I stopped to embrace that I CAN hear the wonderful harmonies and seeing Lilli truly hear something so well just overwhelmed me with joy! I am so blessed to be in such a wonderful family with so many cousins for her to grow up with. In my head I feel like she will always stop to cherish the times that they stop and sing, but in reality I know that in a few years she too will be running around playing tag in the fellowship hall :) Anyways, I cried a little bit tonight and took a moment to pray over my sweet baby and thank God for all he has blessed me with :)